It’s that time of year again. The time when my brain shuts down and I go into a panic attack almost every second of every day. I always feel like my life is in shambles, but honestly it’s not. I just freak out a considerably large amount of the time when I don’t need to. Except for the fact that there are about ten people I talk to in school and out of school everyday, my life is actually going pretty good. I have a college decided, my roommate and I get along, my family has been doing good and I haven’t failed Calc like I thought I would. I wish I could fix my relationships with people, but only time will tell if they mean anything in the long run to me. I just want to make it out of high school in one piece and with that little paper in my hand. At this point, that’s all I can hope for anymore.

Nothing is forever, and I’m finally realizing that now. Nothing is what it seems, either. All of the time I spent being someone who didn’t have the balls to say anything helped me to see these things. Taking a step back helps sometimes.

(Source: or4culum, via m-e-r-m-a-i-d-life)